holy shit- we have a film minor!!!! and my german prof is the chair of the "film studies" department?! must talk to him tomorrow about that... 3 semesters, 6 classes... i think i could do it! :D (i am going to die...)
i have decided that if at all possible i will end up "double minoring" instead of double majoring... gross. oh well. makes my theater class choice easier cause i don't have to do all of the extra stuff. on the other hand, my economic choices for next semester are: law and economics (sounds interesting, but i don't know if i could handle it...), health and economics (there is no blurb about this class anywhere) or econometrics (taught by my game theory prof, who was cool, but his teaching style... i don't know, kind of a bad experience... but needed if attempting to graduate w/ honors...)
i'm so screwed.
in the best of all possible words, the film minor would have existed before this semester, i would have another year of school (or would have figured things out at the beginning of last year) and i would be able to combine the 6 classes needed for a film minor and the 5 classes needed for a theatre minor and would have been able to make that a major in and of itself. then i would have been totally set for the rest of my life.

i think i've decided i'm going to own some local store Barony-esque or work in the film industry. that's what i want to do. damn. i'm so screwed...

OMG! "Clay Aiken comes out of the closet" :O   - I haven't been in this much shock since Lance Bass came out!............

yeah, i'm gonna go eat breakfast now.

so... i'm down to less than a week left of summer vacation. i have to actually start thinking about packing. a bunch of stuff is still in the box(es) it came home in, so that is mostly cool, but i've got to stack all my stuff together. i'm kinda excited and kinda sad about going back to the mountain.
i get my gown this semester- totally stoked (it means i'm smart!) i'm hoping to get to the mountain early enough on tuesday that i can get my books. i discovered that after christmas last semester; getting books the day dorms open are is so much better than getting them the day before classes start.

i'm so brain dead right now........

so... i'm buying a car this summer

if anyone has any tips when it comes to buying a used car, lemme know please :D i have absolutely no idea what i'm doing- i just need a car.

omg-thingssocrazy!!!
game theory test tomorrow- kill me now! first order conditions, contest functions, cournot-nash equilibrium.... eeeh.

marya: sorry i haven't gotten back to you, it would be awesome if i could use your watch again :D

Puppy- i love you

yeah.
ok, back my flashcards............ and trying not to get sick: the sorority that two of my three roommates belong to has about a 95% sickness rate for the sophomores right now. emily is sick. she was puking this morning. though she's always sick, this is virus-y thing that other people actual have right now. my throat hurt yesterday, better now, but i'm coughing. damn you drainage!

hung lights for loves' labors today, will focus thursday... the show doesn't open until the 27... WTF?! working on actually being productive with lighting already?! the painting of the set is actually almost done; sam said that if they painted this weekend they would actually be done.... now if only they could get that tree finished...

ok, really, back to econ.... (it doesn't help my procrastinating self knowing that i have another hour b/w humanities and history and then between history and econ to study... though that first hour will be mostly breakfast... but still an hour and a half to study tomorrow is more than i usually have the day of an exam...)

oh please god can i have one?!?!?!?!?!?..... gotta go lie down for a minute now or maybe a cold shower....

blah.
that's about the extent of it right now- it's one of those 'i have about 6 or 7 emotions running through me right now and yet none at the same time'... and yeah, maybe it is "just a girl thing" but i think it's more of a general I'M BORED (and wanna talk to someone!- however... wait, i lied... not really, i'm still bored, but i have an idea)




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ridiculous thought progression....

idea fell through. bugger.

Post Secret people. if you haven't checked it out, you should. each sunday more secrets are posted, this week was just a short video, but it's still worth seeing. 
some of the secrets are intense, some are funny some sad and some are downright frightening, but it's good to see them.




in other news- i feel sick. i've been feeling sick for the last couple of days. but it's more of a sick dealing with my spastic eating schedule. i don't eat for a while, find myself unbelievably hungry, get lots of food and eat too much of it so that my stomach that hasn't had anything for a while is now groaning because it's been stretched to it's limit... then i digest and my stomach just hurts... on top of that i haven't really been sleeping well the last couple of nights. here's hoping i find some way to right my sleep schedule and have everything else fall into place. things have just been weird for a while.

so... sam adam or jake... any ideas on what is happening today? i'm gonna be at the theater probably bout 1215 and see what the showings are and decide from there. was thinking we should all meet up then, decide which showing to see, and then depending on when that is, chill in TC for a while.

Tommy Wallace, current president of Masquers (and my VP) lost his father to a heart attack last night.
If you see him, or are able to send him an email or note, please let him know you are thinking of him (if you knew/know him that is)

the above cut is an email that i sent to some people (if you didn't get it, don't worry, it wasn't a lot of people
basically, "Invisible Children" has swept through my school this year, and it's intense. and frankly, disturbing.
check it out if you want, i would encourage you to.

so i'm going to start finishing studying for my humanities final tomorrow. but at the moment, Natalie are eating popcorn in a christmas light lighted room, eating pop corn, drinking hot chocolate and listing to the famous Chirstmas Mix courtesy of J-Mag Records (i just wish i had the play list... we're listening to vol. 1 if anyone can manage to find it- much appreciated!)
she's leaving on Wednesday, so i get a couple of nights to myself, kinda looking forward to it. Wednesday is going to be great, the day after finals- sweet. although, tomorrow after the final is gonna be pretty sweet too. thursday i'm going to clean a little bit and pack.
well, it's now an hour later than when i was hoping to start studying... which means this post has been sitting here for nearly that long.
oh well.

so i decided that maybe my hands were cold when i spilled hot cider on one and only noticed it because there was a funny feeling... not because it was hot... it's probably about 45 degrees outside, and i am in sandles, jeans and a teeshirt. then took my sandles off to run across the quad to procure a hot drink. i actually thuroughly enjoyed the sprint over the cold ground. call me crazy- but i did. there was a huge line out in front of the chaple cause Lessons and Carols are today, people have been waiting out there for as long as 3 hours for a 5'clock service. and i went running through them. it was great.
now i must finish a paper, a lab report, another paper and do some reading... and it would probably be a good idea to make some more notecards. i have to put half a semester of biology on notecards. great.

so... thanksgiving is over. it was good. i ate a lot. anything i lost while not eating for 2 weeks is back. hope you guys are happy :p saw Happy Feet w/ Pup... tuesday? night. yeah... no, wedensday night... yeah. it's all running together. wednesday night. it was good. i thuroughly enjoyed it. wish i coulda seen it w/ meggi and krissy cause that would have made my freaking life. i don't usually squeal during movies, but i did a couple of times, and i'm sure seeing it with them would have amplified the effect. 
was out in the middle of nowhere arkansas for thanksgiving. good food, so that made things better. meggi took care o' da pigs (which i'm sure they enjoyed). being out in the middle of nowhere i had no cell phone reception- so when my phone went off, thank god on silent, but made the table buzz, at 12:48 last night i was a little miffed. sent jason a sarcastic and slightly ugly message back, having no reception i couldn't call him or anything, or even answer the phone before the signal was cut... he called today and asked about the message, cause he was confused... then i was confused that he was confused. apparently one of his roommates was messing w/ people's phones last night and making random calls. great, so some random guy that i don't know who lives in atlanta randomly called me from someone else's phone last night. great. i do hope his roommates don't make a habbit of calling random people on his phone.
no i am back at school. my room is a little cleaner, my desk has a little more space on it, there is a giant shiny M&M's candy full of actual M&M's sitting next to me, and i am avoiding my history like the plague. we are however probably watching the Little Mermaid as our sun. night movie tonight. i'm excited. i think if i have time tomorrow i'll put up my christmas lights. i have 4 strings, and supposedly they all work. they need to get hung up. i need to do my history reading. 10 pg book critique due a week from tuesday, and i have no idea what i'm going to write. the first half of the semester is really hazy cause i was kinda like 'OMGCOLLEGE!!" and didn't pay a whole lot of attention. fuck. i also have to rewrite my last humanities paper. 
i'm going to die sometime over the next two weeks. this week i have to do all the work. next week i have classes through wednesday. saturday finals start. i have 2. two finals on the first day of finals. biology at 9 and history at 2. wonderful. i'm going to fucking die. i don't have my last final (only 3 of 4 classes are actually giving a final, that's kinda nice...) until tuesday. so i have a few days to cram for that, which is good cause it's humanities- and i don't know any of that shit. so theoretically i could be home two weeks from wednesday. that would rock. it depends on if the financial aid people will send me my work study check at home- cause they won't go out until friday after finals. although, i could probably hang around for a couple of days and help people study, and just be here with no worries. that might be a good thing.
ok, i really should go do this paper. it's going to bite me in the ass if i don't read some more. (humanities professors froke out about it being the end of the semester, so they crammed all the reading in at the end, go figure. thanks a lot guys!!)

fuck. i just deleted my post.
well, since i am no longer in the "story telling mood" such as i was before, i'll make it short and sweet. 
10 minutes after i climbed into bed last night Claire called and wondered if i still wanted to hang out. sure, as long as i could crash at her brother's cause i didn't feel like i wanted to "get ready and go to bed" again. so Tamra, Jessie, and some other guy who's name i don't remember, piled in the back of the jeep and we went to claire's brothers house. for the second night in a row i fell alseep in the sofa watching the movie. last night we watched office space, the night before was south park (i ended up getting back to my room at about 230 that night...). Tamra and Jessie had to get up early this morning, so insead of getting up early with them, Jason just brought them back after the movie. i didn't feel like getting up, so i stayed on the sofa. after Jason got back, we (me, Claire and Jason) crashed on the pullout pallet on the floor. i think i'm going to have to take a nap this afternoon- even though we really didn't get up until about noon... i didn't sleep much. i knew i probably wouldn't. i never do when i'm not in an actual bed, or somewhere i haven't slept before. but i was too tired to care. this morning was pretty bad though, cause my stomach was killing me. i actually ate yesterday, and i knew i was gonna feel it cause i ate a lot. and this morning was just painful. i should probably eat a granola bar or something... actually, i have to write a paper for tomorrow so i can watch the sunday night movie tonight. fuck it, jason still has my phone charger... he better bring it back tonight.
and now, i have to knock out some Virgil reading. yippee... blarg....

i have so many bruises right now. it's great. had a rugby game in k-ville today. it was fucking awesome. i made some pretty intense tackles, and it totally makes up for the fact that i'm not doing any homework until tomorrow (in which case i have no doubts that i will start and then break down because i begin to think about how much i have to do and start totally hating myself for not doing any before... but ya know what? i dont fucking care right now!!)
i ended up tackling the same girl a couple of times. the first time, i thought i broke her neck because she did this funny roll/flip thing over me and i saw her neck go in, what looked like, a funny direction- but she got up and kept playing. another time i made her fly out of bounds... no joke, her teammate came over said something along the lines of "hey, you ok? ::name here:: you totally just flew about three feet!" i was very proud of myself. she told me she was "just about tired of [me]". it was great.
i also got kicked in the face. it's wasn't bad, i just felt like i had a bruise under my eye and on my chin. but it went away pretty quickly. i have a bruise, about the size of a silver dollar on my chest, it's pretty, as well as a nice blue-green kinda aquamarine color spot on my arm. i love this game... if only practices were more fun. our coach couldn't make it today, so we had a friend of hers, who is actually a coach, help us today. we learned so much from her. our coach is great, but she's really a player, not a coach.
and now, i think i will watch a movie and then go to bed... because i get an extra hour tonight. freaking sweet.
brrr...

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A dream is a wish your heart makes
When you're fast asleep
In dreams you lose your heartaches
Whatever you wish for, you keep
Have faith in your dreams and someday
Your rainbow will come smiling thru
No matter how your heart is grieving
If you keep on believing
the dream that you wish will come true

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